I miss my tinkerbell

For the few of you who know me .. one thing is obvious .. my "girl"friends are very limited

So when one of the tiny number of girlfriends disappears .. i worry

I miss u amool! : (

I know we've never physically met *which sounds weird now that I say it out loud*

But i miss ur random bbm voice notes about the random guy u saw outside the store that pissed u off

I miss ur perfectly-timed phone calls where I would look at my phone .. see "Unknown" .. and know it was u the minute I hear a thick English accent with some bedouin Emarati lingo

I hate how our mutual friend msg me and ask me where u are and i don't have answer for them .. I don't know what to say .. so I reply by jokingly saying "You know Amool .. She'll show up soon!"

But now a few months later .. I dont know if I believe myself anymore ..

Amool .. I really hope you're ok .. and just know that whenever u need someone to talk to .. about anything .. I'm here for u .. the same way u were there for me the 1000s of times I needed a girlfriend to talk to

Thought about it ...

But i didnt ..

I felt like deleting my the last few depressing blog posts as I sat in the office after hours sipping on my coconut-smelling turkish coffee I picked up from al rifai on my last visit to beirut.

But then i took a deep breath and read over the last one specifically. It goes to show u that life has its ups and downs. And that was definitely a down. So now as I sit here, I have 3 thoughts in my head: (1) 7mdilla 3la kl 7al ... (2) why on earth are the ladies from Nails Salon not picking up! :( and ... (3) im going to pass by the supermarket for a few things to make tiramisu for the office tomorrow ..

As u might notice .. my life seems to be in a better place 7mdilla :)

More later