50 Things I Want To Do in 2009

Seeing as time just DOESN'T stop or slow down for anybody .. here are my New Year's Resolutions:

Personal:

1. Worry less
2. Be less scared and more confident
3. Make monthly goals
4. Create a vision board
5. Finish room
6. Try to be less materialistic (keyword: TRY)
7. Save some money
8. Keep smiling because if I show that you're happy, I might even trick yourself into believing it at the worst times
9. Give 50% of my clothes to charity because really, overflowing closets doesn't mean I love what's in there
10. Do one good deed a day

Family:

1. Know that not everything is in my hands
2. Never stop wishing - know that wishing doesnt mean it will actually happen
3. Visit my father's side of the family at least once a month
4. Be much more patient
5. Help my mother more with her work
6. Help my brother with his school work
7. Keep in touch with the London division of my family
8. Frame meaningful pictures and display them around the house
9. Try to go on family vacations
10. Leave stubborness aside

Work:

1. Focus on the deals I'm getting
2. Pass my CFA by studying and going to all my classes (and not be scared to ask questions)
3. Take more notes
4. Show my manager how responsible I can be
5. Be confident enough to speak more at external meetings
6. Take a deal to the next level
7. Make it clear that I DO want to work abroad for a couple months
8. Initiate discussion about masters programs
9. Look for training courses
10. Clarify something instead of assume they meant something else

Physical:

1. Join the gym - thats the first step
2. Eat better
3. Hot oil treatment for my hair once a week
4. Stop drinking fizzy drinks
5. Have 1 cup of coffee a day
6. Drink more green tea
7. Weekly manicure/pedicure and treatment every other week
8. Finish Roactane schedule (for the 3rd time cuz I get too lazy to finish)
9. Floss
10. Use sunblock

Relationships:

1. Show people that I love how much I love them
2. Stop getting upset over silly things
3. Stop being a "tease"
4. Continue giving advice
5. Dont trust everyone
6. Stop talking when you really have nothing to say
7. Think before you do anything
8. Stop doing something when you really don't want to
9. Appreciate the friends I have
10. Push the bad out

ReSolution

In the last few weeks, I have gone through a lot .. And no .. I'm not the type to sit and complain .. Especially if it has something to do with my family or friends .. I usually suck it up .. crack a joke .. and smile

I heard some news about a relative who is very sick and it has shook me into reality

Instead of continuing to mope about this and go into a self-induced depression .. I have come to the conclusion that I should use this period to better myself

A good friend of mine who is about a decade older told me that he has learned throughout his twenties to push away from things that make him feel bad .. do more of the things that make him feel good .. put himself before others .. put his family before himself .. and use less time being upset over petty things ..

Seeing as it's close to New Years .. I felt it appropriate to list my New Year's resolutions in my next post

Life's Not a Bitch ...

... It's a manwhore

I have dedicated my life to this question since I was 2.

Baby H: Mama, Is life a man or woman?

Mama: La 7bibti .. la hatha wala hatha .. '3abya

ok ok .. i added the last part in .. haha .. but you could sense I was going to be a genius .. I already knew life would screw us over

the minute everything seems great .. you get your period

the minute you ask your baba for your blue pillow that is much needed for your backpain .. he forgets

the minute you think you have your weekend scheduled and it seems like a good time .. you realize that you're making plans for the NEXT weekend and you'll be stuck doing NOTHING this weekend

the minute you have eyes for only one man .. the gorgeous friend confesses he loves you

the minute you have done all your work .. your boss tells you .. we're not working on this anymore

the minute you lose the weight and look super fab in your nicely fitting size 12 (yes .. thats good for me!) suit .. your mum makessssss you get a size 16 cuz "fitting means small" and the store is out of 14s

the minute you feel like putting on your sports shoes to get your ass on the treadmill .. your friend calls you and says we have to go to the new seafood restaurant in town

the minute you think you have found the bed you wanted for your room .. they tell you it costs 7,898 EUROS

the minute you think its great they chose you to go on a business trip to meet potential companies .. they tell you its in sydney (15 hour flight)

the minute you think you put on the right top this morning that perfectly matches your outfit, shoes, bag, 3baya, make up .. the receptionist tells you .. SHO LABSA?? 8AMEE9 NOOM?? (cuz it had some lace at the top)

the minute you think you are having a GREAT hair day under that sheila of yours .. the masri woman at the supermarket decides to take off your sheila .. flatten your gorgeous locks .. bobby pin it down .. and put the sheila back on .. (i dont know the woman)

the minute you actually DONT want to do work but want to pretend to be busy .. your screen freezes on your facebook profile page

the minute you think you're going to get that appointment with the dermatologist that you've needed to get but haven't had the time to book .. the receptionists decide the nearest date you get is next week when you're not in town

the minute you finally grow the balls to ask your boss for a ONE DAY vacation .. your dad tells you its going to be 6 days

the minute you think you have had enough with everything and you need someone to call .. ANYONE .. no one is there

the minute you have erased most of the points in your to-do list and want to take a break by checking facebook or blogger .. your manager passes by and thinks that is all you do

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by the way .. don't you hate these dots in forwards?

scratch that .. don't you hate forwards?

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my friends .. what does this remind you of??

MEN! That is why I have finalized my 20 years of research into one theory

Life is a man ..

And in the last year and a half of my blackberry obsession (yes .. if you don't have a blackberry .. you are not worthy in my eyes) .. i have come to realize that blackberrys too are men

why would my blackberry call a certain someone at 3:00 AM for that certain someone to hear that I'm chilling in the lobby at the my hotel in london with all my guys friends? (i assure you .. it was very innocent .. it just sounds soooo '3ala6)

why would my blackberry send a ridiculous picture of my guy friend to a certain someone? (again .. disgustingly innocent mistakes that lead to overdramitcally dramatized situations)

why oh why would my blackberry call my manager on a weekend when i'm having lunch?

Bottom line ladies : Life & Blackberrys are of the male sex .. be careful

So Scared of Getting Older, I'm Only Good at Being Young

So everyday when you wake up, if you're lucky, you have a song that is stuck in your head .. I love those days .. cuz I'm a firm believer in the fact that whatever song you wake up with in your head is going to set the pace for your day .. this is the song that was in mine today .. and its a gorgeous song by John Mayer <3>

enjoy xoxo

No, I'm not colorblind

I know the world is black and white

Try to keep an open mind

But I just can't sleep on this tonight

Stop this train

I wanna get off

And go home again

I can't take the speed it's moving in

I know I can't

But honestly, won't someone stop this train?

Don't know how else to say it

Don't want to see my parents go

One generation's length away

From fighting life out on my own

Stop this train

I wanna get off

And go home again

I can't take the speed it's moving in

I know I can't

But honestly, won't someone stop this train?

So scared of getting older

I'm only good at being young

So I play the numbers game

To find a way to say that life has just begun

Had a talk with my old man

Said "help me understand"

He said "turn sixty-eight

You renegotiate"

"Don't stop this train

Don't for a minute change the place you're in

And don't think I couldn't ever understand

I tried my hand

John, honestly we'll never stop this train

"Once in awhile, when it's good

It'll feel like it should

And they're all still around

And you're still safe and sound

And you don't miss a thing

Till you cry when you're driving away in the dark

Singing

Stop this train

I wanna get off

And go home again

I can't take the speed it's moving in

I know I can

Cause now I see I'll never stop this train

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5BTzNX5OMN4

So I've almost had it with planning this event!! It's .. getting .. RIDICULOUS!!! Walla walla walla .. MAYSWA 3LAYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!

ana t3abt nafseeyan and i started hating EVERYONE!!

;(

Old Wives Tale

So I know this is going to be an iffy issue and you guys are probably gonna be like, why are you writing about this? But for some reason, I want to discuss tampons

Ever since we were kids ilahal always said that tampons are for "7reem m3arsat basssssss." So I came to terms that once a month for a good week I couldn't go swimming and would have to constantly worry about leaking and have to endure the feeling of downright ickiness *ya .. its a word ..google it* .. so the other day I was looking through my bag that my mum had borrowed and I noticed there were a couple cutie pie tampons that were tinyyyyy ..

They looked so harmless .. and then i started thinking .. "Really?? I can lose my virginity by that??!!" Virginity is not an issue I toy around with though so I put it away so my usual curious self didn't take any unnecessary risks

Throughout university I realized that a few of my friends started using them .. and I am 98% sure (cuz there's always that 2% of unsureness) that they are innocent little girls like myself .. So I asked one of them a few weeks back and she told me that the little cutie pie tampon does not take one's virginity ..

Again .. I was dreadfully curious .. but again .. I don't play around with these things .. but really .. what do you guys think?

Peas on Earth

Hello my muffin cakes!

I am horribly excited! I am in the final stages of planning for my event so I can submit it to the sponsors. The beauty of it: I DID IT ALLLLL ON MY OWN!!

honestly now .. aren't thou proud of thy?

I have a meeting today at 4:30 (that I need to reschedule to 4:45 cuz I realized I finish work at 4:30 .. not 4:15!) with a company that should be able to do everything else I have on my list .. so hoora!

I wanted to ask you guys something .. since this is a fundraising event I naturally thought that I would get people to pay an entry fee .. HOWEVER .. I don't want "just anyone" to come .. that sounds cruel and inhumane .. but really .. i want it to be a high profile, invitation only, networking event .. im not gonna invite queen elizabether and expect her to come .. but i want fashionistas who are in love with fashion and want to try new designers .. i want select boutique managers to come so maybe they could pick up a few designers .. i want world peace .. .. .. .. anyhoooooos so my second idea is to sell crafts from the centre (maybe the kids could make something .. i dont know) .. and then auction off a few pieces from the show .. it obviously wont rake in as much as I had hoped .. but it puts the event out there ..

opinions?

xoxo

gossip girl : p .. i miss my shows : (

PS: I google-imaged "however" and i got very disturbing images : s