Giselle Me Please

So .. I just read Dandoon's post about her resolutions! *Good luck :D* and I read it at a good time .. last week I made an appointment at a dietician here .. Its a program where they send you your meals so you dont have to worry about the calories or how the food is cooked or whatever .. the only thing you do .. is EAT .. they will be sending me 3 meals a day along with 2 snacks .. this means that I wont be ordering a quesidella explosion salad from chilis anymore (cuz who am I kidding?? just cuz it says salad doesnt mean its healthy) .. so everyone is going to know at one point or another that I am on a diet ..



I've never remembered a time where I wasn't either on or getting a diet .. I always lose the weight .. then within a month of compliments and gorgeously fitting jeans .. I gain it back .. plus some ..



Why do I want to lose the weight now? Everyone seems to want to lose the weight for this person's wedding .. or to get married .. well for me .. its everything .. I have jeans that would look THAT much hotter if I lost a few here and there .. my cousin's wedding is coming up and my entireeee familia has been on a diet since ramadan .. I don't really want to get married at this very moment but it would be nice to feel better about myself ..



Don't get me wrong .. im not one of those who obsess over my weight .. Let me make one thing straight .. I'm hot .. If I lost 20 kgs or if I gained 20 .. I've been blessed with a ridiculous amount of self-confidence that is harmful to my health .. bas im not 5agaga .. i dont adore myself like one of my darrrrrrling friends .. ahem ahem .. J?? but I feel that I'm ok with myself and any point of my life



So other day I was a friend's birthday celebration (this is the ONLY person i'll allow to celebrate their birthday in my birthmonth) and one of the girls rushed up to me saying how in love with my style she was .. so I was flattered and all .. and then she mentioned how I have a striking resemblance to giselle bundchen ..



I



AM



OBSESSED



WITH



GISELLE



So I overexcitedly responded .. REALLY!!!! She's like ya!! your hair and your face!! that was a polite way of her saying that I'm fat ..



So please .. if you see me eating something besides the boxed items that are delivered to my door .. slap me ..



I'm gonna look like Giselle in a month .. you wait and see .. (crossing my fingers)



mhmmm



and now the only thing im worried about is how I'm gonna finish all the junk in my office drawer .. I dont share .. but i cant possiblyyyyy eat a whole bag of Reeses Pieces M&Ms, Laffy Taffy, Crunch, Baby Ruth, Seaweed Rice Crackers (chftoo kaif ana healthy?? :p) ..