Stressed Is Desserts Spelled Backwards

I have been unbelievably stressed out the last few days.. Not because of the amount of work I have .. but because of the amount of thoughts in my head .. I am one of those people that overwhelms herself before she even needs to do something .. so lemme just tell you the things I've been thinking of:

1. how incapable i seem to be at understanding the basics of finance (i am a financial analyst)


2. ive been trying to get STARTED on planning a huge event that will promote awareness of speech disorders and raise money for my mother's speech disorders centre


3. i need to change my room because everytime i walk in it, i get utterly depressed


4. i started my diet and i need to join a gym


5. i hate boys


6. i am bored


7. i have gel on my nails and im trying not to rip off my right pointer finger's one cuz its kinda coming off

ok enough .. so let me go into a little more detail about a few of my thoughts that have been stressing me out

first thing-a-ma-jig: the department's head analyst gives us financial exercises every now and then to keep our financial skills fresh .. so last sunday he gave me my first problem and he said: "This shouldn't take you more than a couple hours, because it's very basic, while the others could take you a few weeks at a time." That was last week. Am I done? No! Why? Because I never paid attention in any of my finance courses (I graduated with a degree in Finance/Economics .. (>_<) but that doesnt mean i know anything in finance!!) So here I am .. sitting all alone .. not knowing how to get NPV=0 to get my IRR ..

second thing-a-ma-jig: i want to plan the mother of all events to promote my mother's speech and language disorders centre, raise awareness of the increasing problem of speech impediments in the gulf, give gulf-based designers the opportunity to showcase their designs and gather the UAE's most charitable and fashioned society .. now .. WHERE DO I START?? i broke down the event into approximately 15 different major tasks that could be put into 8 dedicated teams .. i can't think of ANYONE to help me though .. and anytime i bring up this idea a few people tell me they'd help out and im like .. no seriously .. i WILL ask you for help .. u best help!!

third thing-a-ma-jig: my room is a mess .. it looks like my parents have been accumulating their 100 year old furniture that does NOT match or feel zen-like in any manner and pile it into my room .. i have a desk fullllll of STUFF .. mama runs around the globe and buys a bunch of stuff that she then puts onto this desk .. old "new" perfumes that she saves for occassions that are still wrapped in their plastic .. old "new" medicine you cant find here that is almost expired because no one used it .. old "new" chocolate that has that white layer of oldness on it when u open it up .. its a mess .. i then have a cupboardy thingy thats full of STUFF too .. i have wallets, belts, hair accessories from back in the day .. honestly .. at least stuff that is 10 years old .. its horrible .. my clothes are overflowing my closet cuz theres no order in my room .. i hate it .. i hate my ugly red couch .. i hate my ugly plain bed .. i hateeeeeeeeeeee that stupid desk .. i hateeeeeeeeeee that stupid cupboard .. i need oprah to help me

fourth thing-a-ma-jig: no need to go into detail .. the underlying theme is that im just lazy

fifth thing-a-ma-jig: no comment (@_@)

sixth thing-a-ma-jig: i need some major excitement in my life .. but i keep cramming ideas into my little red moleskin diary (used by the likes of Oscar Wilde).. and now i bought a black moleskin book for the event .. something is missing .. i dont know what though .. maybe im still broken up about the fact that i missed House Bunny in the cinema :(

seventh thing-a-ma-jig: dont worry .. my nails are undercontrol cuz i have a 5:30 appointment in the salon

im sure there's more .. ill update u ..

sincerely,

depressed with a gun